I'm feeling a bit better. I'm not nearly as tired today. I did go to the doctor, though, and she prescribed a decongestant that's also a cough suppressant so I should be able to sleep without being racked with cholera. Yay! And 1969 & Rashan sent me check-up e-mails. How lovely. I didn't even get that from Stace. I really need new friends.
I also had C.hickFil.A today and yesterday! I didn't go during Lent because their fries... Praise Jesus for their fries! I'd rather not be tempted so I just kept my distance. As in you keep your fantastic waffle-y goodness over there and I will keep my fry-free Lenten self over here but He rose and now I can eat fries!
I looked in the mirror this morning and was a bit alarmed. Remember how when my mom saw me back in August she told me not to lose another ounce? Well I think I did. I may not be that skinny but I looked emaciated to me!! You know black women can have the other sort of BDD. We don't think we look too fat, we think we look too skinny!! Too funny. So I might not be going to the gym this week.
Ok that is a lie. I couldn't even keep it up for 5 seconds!! Pitiful!! Three times a week is a healthy amount. I haven't been this week yet but I know there is no way I can skip all week long. I work out so I can eat whatever I want because y'all know I love to eat! Did not eating fast food do this to me because I looked extra small when I looked in the mirror this morning. I DON'T KNOW!! There's this suuuuper skinny toned chick at the gym. Uhh... I don't wanna look like her. There are two of them actually that I see all the time. I don't want to look like either of them. The other one does those competitions where she flexes and shows how
All I know is I don't want to look too skinny when I go back home because at homecoming, it was a bit unnerving to hear "You lost a lot of weight!" 50 million times. I lost probably 12 lbs. But when you're 5'1 it looks like more. I know I'll really hear that at home but only at church so I should be okay. Everyone pray! What if I told everyone who asked, "Oh it's so easy! After a while you don't even notice the hunger! I only eat once a week. You should try it!"
I forgot I need to tell more people to have parties. My friend Tasha seems really excited (the one who came to visit me 2 years ago). She keeps sending me events and calling. I love it. She's one of my middle school crew. We go back 13 years. 7th grade baby! Me, her & Meagan. There were 3 others but I don't talk to them anymore. Meagan & Tasha talk to one of them, the other two disappeared off the face of the earth, then found me on myspace.
Speaking of that. One of the ones who found me on myspace only told Tasha (not any of the rest of us) she was getting married. Then none of us were invited to the shower or wedding. Then Tasha found out she was pregnant a month or two before the baby was born. We weren't invited to that shower either. Tasha (who has always talked to her the most) went to see her in the hospital and hasn't talked to her much since. I sent out my "I'm coming home, holla, etc." message on myspace and she's with the, "You should come see me and the baby." Wow... You are special. Only if my mom wants to see him. Did I forget to tell my mom about that?? I can't remember. Ah well. That's all folks.
*Side note: did you know you can cough hard enough to crack a rib (whooping cough) or give yourself a hernia? That's what I call disgusting. That's also what propelled me to the doctor's office this morning!