Just Be?

I need to try that. I know I keep saying that but it still doesn't happen. It's such a conscious effort to just be. I need some serious peace. I know where to find it-- God-- but it's a STRUGGLE to actually let go. There are some things I readily give to Him because I DON'T WANT IT NO MORE!! Others are harder. And not because I still want it but I feel like BUT I'VE GOTTA DO SOMETHING! ANYTHING! Sigh. Life. You annoy me. But don't go nowhere because I still have things to accomplish.

I hit a milestone today but felt nothing. It was very odd. I don't know what that means. Time will tell.

I NEED HELP!! Stan the man is coming to visit my job tomorrow. I don't know why other than the P.enguins being in the finals. But that doesn't seem reason enough for it to make a special appearance at the workplace but no matter! I'm gonna take a picture w/it and dress up for said picture... I need something crazy to do like the players always do. What should I do???

Those of you in this article who didn't shower for two weeks to show how "green" you are are disgusting. They said go GREEN, not black behind your ears from dirt accumulation.

And this article about Rocky's right-hand man made me 1) feel like I should know him since he's from my hometown (but he went to private school) and 2) want to try all the things on Rocky's likes list. Except the tea. I don't do tea. I don't care how organic or flavored it is, it's not for me. I'll drink it if there's nothing else in the house, it's one of my mom's specialty drinks that people always request, but I don't like tea. I'll drink hot English breakfast tea, but flavored hot teas and iced tea? Pass. I had some raspberry iced tea koolaid that I liked but not enough to buy. I'm a drinks girl. I realized I could in theory stop drinking adult beverages because I just like crazy fruits mixed together... except pomegranate-- VOMIT! Speaking of... Joy I spent at least 3 minutes in the refrigerated juice section until I found that juice you like all the way at the bottom. I couldn't do it. I can't stand pomegranate. I was really disappointed, too. I love trying and liking things my bloggers suggested. I have to try this veggie recipe Liz gave me. I bought lots of veggies on my last trip to W.hole Foods.

In case you were wondering, I'm also pancake picky. I don't really like pancakes very much. I can go months or more than a year without eating them. I love ketchup! I want to tour the H.einz plant before I leave since the company was founded here. They only make baby food here now but I'm going anyway. You know I'm making my list. I'm sure it will be long so I have to start now naming stuff and crossing it off. It will take a while to get through it all.

Another odd thing and then I'm done! Lol. I never ever know anything about the weather or traffic though I "hear" both at least literally 10xs every day. Probably more. I could count each hit but those are my times to focus on other things even when I'm in the booth producing. Those things are self-contained. That's my time to get rid of a story if we're short on time or whatever. Oh I'm gonna do a t.v. explainer post one of these days so if you have any tv-related questions, send them my way. But I say all this to say I NEVER KNOW WHAT THE WEATHER IS GONNA BE! I end up having to check the weather when I leave work... or (and sometimes I do this just to annoy the meteorologists lol) I ask them right as I leave even though they did the weather no less than :45 earlier. HAHAAHAAHAHA!! I know I'm bad but I'm okay with that! *still giggling*