Immersed is the best word I could use to describe my job. But in a superficial way unless I choose to delve. Broadcast is a medium which requires brevity of thought. A lot of print journalists look down on us for this very reason. We don't beat you over the head with details because we don't have time. Stories without sound should take less than 25 seconds to read. And that's pushing it. I can look at a block of words and tell you the approximate time it will take to read and how overly wordy it is for a broadcast story.
But I love details.
I get caught up in them. Wrapped up in them. Swallowed by them. If a story really captivates me, like the ones about young children facing some adversity or getting caught in the whirlwind of their parents' ill-fated lives, or Katrina, or the Virginia Tech shootings, or 9/11, I start reading and I can't stop. Those pages which have link after link after link of information, one-on-one portraits, and in depth stories, and video and pictures are the bane of my existence. And my work in local news has me always searching for the link to me. Do I know anyone effected? Was anyone from the Pittsburgh or Hampton or Charlotte metro areas? I hit one link and another and another. Multi-media on the web fuels my journalistic fire. I have to know.
But that thirst for knowledge can also be my downfall. It leaves me vulnerable. It makes me need an escape. Somewhere I don't have to think about it, or look at it, or feel it, or cover every single angle. Hence the blog. That's why though I know a ridiculous amount of current events and browse the NYTimes, WashPost, USAToday, CharlotteObserver, PittsburghPostGazette, CNN, WallStreetJournal, and FoxNews, sometimes I have to just stop. And leave it alone.
So though the day Katrina hit, and the WorldTradeCenter fell, and United93 crashed in a field in ShanksvillePa, in our viewing area, and another plane slammed into the Pentagon, and a lost boy gunned down his schoolmates, and all these other horrific events won't be missed, sometimes I just can't talk about it.