You know how sometimes you just have a feeling that something isn't right and you can't put your finger on it? That's where I am right now. I definitely think some of it is fueled by Facebook and this constant, obsessive intrusion into other people's lives, but when I was talking to my mom about this feeling the other day, I realized it is also due in part to the feeling that perhaps I should be done with this phase of my life and probably most of all a disconnection from people here in Gainesville.
Facebook is certainly to blame. My closest friends don't live anywhere near me but many of them live within a couple of hours of each other and see each other on a regular basis. I've always wanted that, a community of those I care about. And I need some black people in the mix. That's difficult for me to explain sometimes, but when there is some sort of race-related discussion, it's nice to have a black person there to just be able to talk it out with. I like the people in my program a lot but I'm the only black person so in some ways that part of the conversation is never going to happen. And if it does it will come with a lot of explanation that won't necessarily yield greater understanding. In the next few days I will go into something I've been wanting to address for several years: the importance of historically black colleges and universities in the contemporary world.
Today I've gotten my movie viewing back on track, I blogged and I'm going to do some more cleaning before I head to the lab. I have several things to look forward to, not the least of which is Rashan coming this weekend, another SGRho probate on campus on Saturday, Stace coming on Sunday, then us heading to Tallahassee for a couple of days next week, then a trip to the Keys! Yay!!!