1.15.2007

Dear God (Part 3)

I can't take it. I really can't. The foolish people. I know I'm not supposed to question you so I won't ask why. I'll just request a limit to my contact with them? Right now I feel like I have a ridiculous amount of them bothering me. Not like earlier in life when my patience and tact were a lot closer to zero, but still. Sometimes I really want to shake and choke folk and I know that's not what you want.

You'd probably like me to go to church more, too, since I haven't been in about 15 months now (oooh, heathen). I could give you a myriad of excuses (hmph), but there really isn't one now is there? (show ain't). Especially since the amen corner is so loud over there!! (well, you are wrong, ain't you?) But that's not the point. I'm kind of scared to go to church. I don't want to get struck by lightning. (that surely is a danger with your attendance record right now). That's enough amen corner. (what? tell the truth, shame the devil).

ANYWAY!! How about I just make an effort (any effort at all would be nice). *sigh* I'll start with Bible Study. K, God? On Wednesday nights so there's no excuse of being too tired and working for 11+ hours.

Jameil

21 comments:

CNEL said...

Lilmama (1:13:32 AM): i'm a little better than yesterday
Lilmama (1:13:48 AM): the service this morning really helped lift my spirits
stormyc14 (1:14:09 AM): yay for church i gtta get on that regular attendance
Lilmama (1:14:59 AM): yes u do....it really helps man im telling you

I just had a similar thought after this conversation. I realized T.V. preachers don't count unless due to circumstances out of my control. There is no excuse for me not to be in attendance atleast two Sunday's out the month when in Baltimore churches are as abundant as corner stores. Oh that and my mother used to teach Sunday school, and my cousin's a First Lady.

jameil1922 said...

cnel... wth are you doing up at this nonsensical hour? charlotte churches are like that too. there are a lot of catholic churches here. i don't find them welcoming enough.

if it helps, my mom used to be sunday school superintendent, my grandfather was and my uncle is a preacher.

Dreamlover said...

I need to get my ass to church as well, it was needed. I will try and make it next week.

And oh, do you know how I cringed when I read the 'foolish people' part. Even if I wasn't part of the group you were intending to include, I felt like I could have been.

Nuff Said!!

Lesson learned!! ;0)

Aisha T. said...

A good friend of mine says that only 10 percent of the population has common sense.

Amber Ileene said...

oh church ... you are not the only one who is not in regular attendance like they should be ... and i live in the bible belt imagine that ... i just say dont get overzealous ... like you said try for bible study and see how that goes! but i feel ya i do!

dreamyj said...

definitely feeling you, but going to church can help, and Bible study is even better! you get more out of the word and smaller group fellowship!

shani-o said...

I wasn't really raised in church, and to be honest, I don't go for the religious aspect (I have far too many unanswered questions), I go for the socializing, and the mostly relevant lessons.

Don't beat yourself up about not going... The pastor of the church I semi-regularly attend always says, "You don't have to go to church to get to heaven, but joining a church makes the trip a little bit sweeter."

The Very Reverend Ace Clemmons, Jr. said...

Bloody Mary's are as religious as i get.

and im a reverend.

Madam said...

baby steps jam, baby steps...I respect them. bible study sounds on point. I'm a big believer of 'Jesus lives in me". so sunday ain't the only day to fellowship with his people an dlearnt the word.

man, you got me thinking about one of my favorite book sin elementary school. "Dear God, it's me, Margaret". That was my joint!!!

Honey-Libra said...

Hey it's a start and he knows your heart..although some folks take that out of context..God knows my heart and they be smokin the cheeba LOL

Stacie von Kutieboots said...

yay to bible study!

why did father winston call the house and ask where i've been? should i tell him, "ummm, i've spent my sundays touring with a reggae band"????

i don't think i want God to choke and shake anybody...i scared!

X Factor said...

I feel you on the absence from church. Until I moved here, I only went to church when I just couldn't stand the guilt anymore. But since I've gotten here and found a church that I LOVE, I can't seem to stay away!! Bible study is a really good start though - I haven't been able to go for the last few weeks because I have been working on Thursday nights, but when I can make it, it is ALWAYS worthwhile. Making a stronger commitment to attending church and paying my tithes has made a NOTICEABLE difference in my life in just a few short months. I admire your desire to start getting back in there :)

So...Wise...Sista said...

If it's in your heart then you'll go and find the right church for you. you should never use guilt as a catalyst, and def not let your attendance record be a deterent. You know thats just another excuse, dont you lil sis. ;) Who knows, it might be just the sense of home and community that you're looking for in that God awful town. lol

TrinaBeingTrina said...

First of all is it true what Aisha T said? With all the fools running around here I have to say I believe it.
Anyhoo...I just started going to church again after years of being absent. If I didn't get struck down you won't either!

T Dot said...

Hooray for getting your relationship right with God! I know that when I came to RI I was miserable for a while - I didn't know anyone and all I did was work. So I found a church (my friend's dad is a Pastor) and started attending regularly. I know it sounds cliche, but it really did lift my spirits. And it helped me to deal with a lot of randomness that has been going on in my life; therefore making me a better person.

So, I too support baby steps. It's not where you praise Him, but how that counts.

Southern Girl said...

There is a group of us that just got the shift where we have Sun. and Mondays off...we said we are going to get up and go to church together on Sunday.......we need to keep eachother accountable J...

The Sarccastik Variable Why said...

LOL....that's funny...what are the people saying about the hiring of the brother in the steelers?

4EverJennayNay said...

I meant to go to church yesterday...

I overslept.

"shame the devil, tell the truth"

now that's one I ain't heard in a minute.

Toni Phoenix said...

Your reluctance to go back and fear of being "struck by lightening" is nothing but the enemy trying to keep you from being closer to God. Ignore the enemy and make your way back. God will be waiting for you.

jameil1922 said...

thanks for all of your words of encouragement. worry not. i'm not really scared of being struck down for not going to church! the parenthetical parts were a joke. i am not going to slit my wrists or skirt around the church for fear of imminent holy beatdowns.

i will work on it. i don't have sundays off and crash shortly after getting home most saturdays and sundays after sitting in one place for so long. at this point, the likelihood of me going to church regularly w/this schedule is slim. that's why i said i'll start w/bible study. but i'm dragging my feet with that too. whatev. i'll get it together.

ace... you are an ASS!!!! love it.

madam... that was one of my favorite books!! i love judy blume!!!!!

honey... hahahahahaha!! on that kryptonite right after church huh? i knew a dude who used to come to church reeking of liquor from the night before every week. NOT a good look.

sarcasstik... i haven't heard anything too crazy. but i didn't go to the gym today. i'm sure the nuts will be out in full force per usual. people aren't really gonna get on tv and say "i think they should've never hired a negro." esp. after the colts and the bears yesterday. its the week of the black coach. hahahahahahahaha. but you know the black folk are amazed and overjoyed.

sweetlime said...

laughing my ass off girl. u just made me smile.